February 3rd, 2004

alien © me

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so... i was reading my friend's journal... and she talked about she and her friend drifting apart... then i started thinking... and i feel like im in her same position... i feel like ana and i are... losing our best friend touch... i feel like she's leaveing me for stephanie... and it really sucks cuz that always happens to me... i make a friend... we become "best friends" and then they end up ditching me for someone else... i mean, i dont want it to seem like i dont want ana to have other friends... cuz thats not what im trying to say... she's 100% entitled to making other friends... but its like... she and i are drifting apart cuz she and stephanie are getting closer... like... we never say "we should... this weekend!" and stuff... and she like ditches us to go hang out with stephanie and memo... like before we moved hangout spots at lunch... and in the morning... and it really sucks cuse i really thought i had something special with ana... and now its like... i guess now she has something special with stephanie... they have like 124687624657324 inside jokes... and when i talk to them i feel kinda left out and like i shouldnt be there cuz i dont belong... and they plan stuff and im like the last one to find out... and ana and i havent talked about our matching sweaters anymore... and i just feel like trash now... i feel like i might as well just go find a new friend cuz its obvious that they're going to end up best friends... but i dont want to... cuz i <3 ana so much... and i dont know... ana... when you and steph become best friends forEVER... just know that i loved ya like a sis... and you were always a great friend to me...
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