March 17th, 2004

alien © me

love me, love me... say that you love me...

hmmm… lets see… where did I leave off… well… my hair cut… ah yes… I got my hair cut… I still havnt gotten around to taking pictures… but almost everyone at school LOVES my hair now! I know luwam loves it even more than I do… and even james told me he liked it. he said something like “I like your hair cut… it’s a change… a good one” and I felt all pretty for a few minutes… but then I snapped back to reality…

on Saturday… what did I do on Saturday… I didn’t get to go the the movie with bryan cuz I wasn’t feeling good… I was bored all day… then raul called me… he invited me to the ATVs in otay… I decided to go… it was fun… hid mom bought me a fruit tart afterwards… it was yum… then we went to the mall it think… I don’t know if I got anything… oh yes some face thing… and some dry erase markers for my marker board… then we went to his house… and were just there… watching tv…

then on Sunday… I did laundry… I don’t know why I mentioned that… then raul had invited me to go to church with him… I was like “agh”… we were going at around 5… my mom got home pretty early so she came too… then afterwards his mom is like “so what do you guys want to do now?” and at first raul was like “can we go to our house” and everyone is like “yeah! ok! wo0-h0o!” but then I don’t remember who either him, or his mom suggest chuck e. cheeses and I’M like “yeah!!! w0o-ho0!!!” so we go… it was UBER fun! we won some playdough… and some candy for raul… there were some Mexicans there and they were looking at me… and I had a skirt on… and I got scared… we left there like at eight… then I came home… I'm taking some pills now for my acne… its not BAD… but its annoying… I started talking them on like… Sunday I think… so its been less than a week… I'm just waiting to see if anything happens…

on Monday… I don’t even remember Monday… or Tuesday… or yesterday…

today I ran the mile… I passed… I'm happy for me… but the people counting for me almost made me run an extra one… I was so angry… but whatever… then my stomach started to hurt… REALLY bad! it was weird… I washed my face off with water and I felt a bit better… then I started talking to Melissa… I <3 her so much… I mean, she and I aren’t best friends or anything… but I feel like we don’t have to be… she’s such a good person… she always talks to me… even about personal stuff… she and lawanna are the two people I absolutely ADORE… because they talk to me about literally anything and I trust them 100%, and we’re not even great friends or anything! I <3 them so much… they’re both SUCH great people… … then I went to raul’s house after school… I watched making the/a video… of the D12 song “my band”… and for some weirdo reason I really like that song… then I came home… and logged on… got harassed by some racist people… then… I sat and chatted with some amigos… and here I am… agh… and jesus wont go away…

JOEL EMAILED ME!!!!!! I was so happy… I haven’t heard from him since the day after forever! I was so happy… he’s been at some 26 day camp… he said he’s hoping to send me my package soon… but i doubt it… I havnt told him about my hair… I’ll send him pics as well… he more than anyone deserves to see them… <3x43546516846321065465184616846468168461968461968746168 < my love for joel…

and I end it there.
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