September 16th, 2004

walking away © me

Hey you smokin up your sorrow, Just pointing fingers at someone to blame

im suddenly sticken by sadness. and the feeling of being empty inside. i feel like everythig that i thought to be my reason for getting my ass up in the morning has crumbled beneath me. like it was all a lie. on their part.

i wont get into detail.

ashlee simpson has a hot voice.

but i think its sad the way she thinks/wants to be so punk rock, but its just pop. except not as girly as jessica's. bleh. she's still hot.

today was bleh.


english was barable. oscar is odd. in a hilarous sort of way.

chemistry. i dont know if to say that i like mr. barron. cause i might not in a few weeks. i dont know.

lunch was bla.


i hope she's ok. if something happens to her, i'd die.

raul got mad at me for him being a jerk... carry the one, add the five... it somehow doesnt add up... maybe im doing my math wrong.

pe was... good? i dont know. stephanie is funny. but i cant figure out if she really likes me, or is just pretending... like everyone else.

spanish i think i love ms. milloy for always forgetting to check the homework, cause i forgot to the homeowrk that was due today, and she didnt ask for it... again.

the bus ride was probly the funnest. i love ray. he's so funny. i had to three sit with some sixth graders, one of which reminded me of my cousin ronnie, but then he started cussing, and i went from :-D to :-\.

then i came home. gained ten pounds. got online. and as usual, no one talked to me.


and i really dont want to be here.

The sky is fallin', and it's
Early in the mornin', but it's
Okay somehow
I spilt my coffee, it went
All over your clothes
I gotta wear mine now

And I'm always, always, always late
And my hair's a mess
Even when it's straight


But so what?
I'm better off everyday
When I'm standing in the pouring rain
I don't mind
I think of you and everything's alright
I used to think i had it good
But now I know that I'm misunderstood
With you I'd say
I'm better off in everyway

My friends keep calling, they say
They say I'm stalling
They wanna meet you now
I tell them hell no, I say
We're trying to lay low
Don't wanna lose what I've found


Things are finally, finally lookin' up
Oh, my feet are on the ground even though i'm stuck

But so what?
I'm better off everyday
When I'm standing in the pouring rain
I don't mind
I think of you and everything's alright
I used to think I had it good
But now I know that I'm misunderstood
With you I'd say
I'm better off in everyway

Things are finally, finally lookin' up
Oh, my feet are on the ground even though i'm stuck
Even though i'm stuck

But so what?
I'm better off everyday
When I'm standing in the pouring rain
I don't mind
I think of you and everything's alright
I used to think I had it good
But now I know that i'm misunderstood

Yeah, yeah
I'm better off in everyway
I'm better off today

The sky is fallin' and it's
Early in the mornin'
But it's okay


or so i like to think.

um. did i mention that gabby + alba invited me to thir quince? gabby's is this weekend. i dont know if i want to go. i wasnt even expecting to be invited. i think she haded me an invitation just cause she gave oscar one right in front of me, and didnt want me to feel bad? i dont know.


there are times when i really badly wish that i could just run away. not from home. or school. but from myself. from being me. just be... nothing; a cloud, a tree, or even a snail. just not denise. im tired of being denise.

i really want to go shopping. i need ropa. i want make up. and i ♥ underwear shopping (dont ask). maybe some friends. but i dont know if i have enough money to buy one of those.

i made some icons today.

and some seniors stopped by today. i only saw paul's brother.

i think im done writng about my emo-ness.

laterdays.


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