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[20 Sep 2004|09:10pm]
yay! i finally downloaded msn + aim!
(1) saw me fall & didn't save me

such a pretty picture that you paint [20 Sep 2004|06:07pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

wee! i had an ok day.

but in the morning i felt like dog ass.

i LOOKED like dog ass, and i felt like dog ass.

and i had a horrible time sleeping. and i had a horrible night.

but thats all done with for now!

so i got up, somehow, and got ready for school.

got on the bus. arrived at school.

algebra was ok. ana+monika=LMAO.

then i had... avid. ana+bobby=hotsexANDLMAO

and i love art. i think that was my funnest class. we're doing the color wheel with primary/secondary/complementry colors. and let me say that edwin is one of the funniest people i know. his wheel looked like crap. seriously. it looked like a first grader did it. and he missed up where the colors were supposed to go. they're were supposed to be in a certain order, so that they made sense, and edwin put the green where the orange went. and HE DOES NOT KNOW HOW TO MIX COLORS!!!! it was the funniest thing i have since... a really long time. and even though my job was clean off all the pain off the palettes, i still &hearts mr. weeks.

then i had history. i got an 8/9 on the quiz. yay! go me!

then the bus ride was fun-o. i sat next to this kid named felix. and he's SOOOOO funny. and not on purpose.

i asked him if he's ever heard of the walkmen, and he said yeah, and i was like :-O!!!!! and he said that his sister had listened to/talked about them.

right after that, i asked him if he was an only child.

God. i swear im not really blonde. we laughed at it though.

then he said that the other day, he had gone out to play soccer, and that it got really dark really fast, and he thought he was late to get home, and that he though it was like ten, so he ran home, and when he got there he looked at the clock, and it was only like 7:15. i was laughing my ass off. i laughed so hard, i started to cry. i laughed at some other stuff. but i dont remember.

then i came home, and pigged out on beaner food.

so um, i have a quince to go to this weekend.

and jesus still wont go away. and he's annoying.

and i went back to that journal website, and they changed the date to the 26, so i wont check back till then to see if i can rcover my uj account.

we got new phones today, cause the one we had was really gay, and i think has like cancer or something, and is simply too weak to work. or turn on for that matter. :-\

and i dont know when i'll upload the pics i have. probly never. cause im a lazy mexican. and i can do that. so ha!


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[19 Sep 2004|07:47pm]

i have a serious shampoo buying fetish.
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[18 Sep 2004|08:19pm]
ryan, i heart you. i most def would have gone, but i got the email alittle too late. im sorry. :-(

went shopping, details + pics later.
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[17 Sep 2004|11:57pm]
jodie foster rocksmypantieslikewhoatimesfive.

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Get ready, let me tell you whose the boss now [17 Sep 2004|07:10pm]
[ mood | dead ]

i had a really bad week.

its times like these when i wish i had friends to invite me places. :-\

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[16 Sep 2004|10:50pm]

im speechless. a whole motherfucking year of my life, basically gone. my FIRST EVER journal site, completely GONE.

what. the. fuck.
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Hey you smokin up your sorrow, Just pointing fingers at someone to blame [16 Sep 2004|10:06pm]
[ mood | emo ]

im suddenly sticken by sadness. and the feeling of being empty inside. i feel like everythig that i thought to be my reason for getting my ass up in the morning has crumbled beneath me. like it was all a lie. on their part.

i wont get into detail.

ashlee simpson has a hot voice.

but i think its sad the way she thinks/wants to be so punk rock, but its just pop. except not as girly as jessica's. bleh. she's still hot.

today was bleh.

english was barable. oscar is odd. in a hilarous sort of way.

chemistry. i dont know if to say that i like mr. barron. cause i might not in a few weeks. i dont know.

lunch was bla.

i hope she's ok. if something happens to her, i'd die.

raul got mad at me for him being a jerk... carry the one, add the five... it somehow doesnt add up... maybe im doing my math wrong.

pe was... good? i dont know. stephanie is funny. but i cant figure out if she really likes me, or is just pretending... like everyone else.

spanish i think i love ms. milloy for always forgetting to check the homework, cause i forgot to the homeowrk that was due today, and she didnt ask for it... again.

the bus ride was probly the funnest. i love ray. he's so funny. i had to three sit with some sixth graders, one of which reminded me of my cousin ronnie, but then he started cussing, and i went from :-D to :-\.

then i came home. gained ten pounds. got online. and as usual, no one talked to me.

and i really dont want to be here.

The sky is fallin', and it's
Early in the mornin', but it's
Okay somehow
I spilt my coffee, it went
All over your clothes
I gotta wear mine now

And I'm always, always, always late
And my hair's a mess
Even when it's straight

But so what?
I'm better off everyday
When I'm standing in the pouring rain
I don't mind
I think of you and everything's alright
I used to think i had it good
But now I know that I'm misunderstood
With you I'd say
I'm better off in everyway

My friends keep calling, they say
They say I'm stalling
They wanna meet you now
I tell them hell no, I say
We're trying to lay low
Don't wanna lose what I've found

Things are finally, finally lookin' up
Oh, my feet are on the ground even though i'm stuck

But so what?
I'm better off everyday
When I'm standing in the pouring rain
I don't mind
I think of you and everything's alright
I used to think I had it good
But now I know that I'm misunderstood
With you I'd say
I'm better off in everyway

Things are finally, finally lookin' up
Oh, my feet are on the ground even though i'm stuck
Even though i'm stuck

But so what?
I'm better off everyday
When I'm standing in the pouring rain
I don't mind
I think of you and everything's alright
I used to think I had it good
But now I know that i'm misunderstood

Yeah, yeah
I'm better off in everyway
I'm better off today

The sky is fallin' and it's
Early in the mornin'
But it's okay

or so i like to think.

um. did i mention that gabby + alba invited me to thir quince? gabby's is this weekend. i dont know if i want to go. i wasnt even expecting to be invited. i think she haded me an invitation just cause she gave oscar one right in front of me, and didnt want me to feel bad? i dont know.

there are times when i really badly wish that i could just run away. not from home. or school. but from myself. from being me. just be... nothing; a cloud, a tree, or even a snail. just not denise. im tired of being denise.

i really want to go shopping. i need ropa. i want make up. and i ♥ underwear shopping (dont ask). maybe some friends. but i dont know if i have enough money to buy one of those.

i made some icons today.

and some seniors stopped by today. i only saw paul's brother.

i think im done writng about my emo-ness.



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[15 Sep 2004|09:26pm]
raul wants to start reading my journal. like, on a daily basis.

i told him i'd think about it. :-\
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[15 Sep 2004|05:31pm]
jorge touched my face today in drawing+painting. i swear i didnt quiver...
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[14 Sep 2004|07:46pm]

i cut my hair today!
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i dont just want to survive, i want to rub it in your face... [13 Sep 2004|07:17pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

so. where the hell have I been?

dead. that's where.

lets see. saw the movie paparazzi. did i mention that? i dont remember. :-\

school started.

algebra 2
painting+drawing (art)
AP european history
phys ed.

i spent the last half of friday-the first part of domingo at anal's house. we watched movies.

donnie darko = best. movie. ever.
amelie = cutest. movie. ever.
quills = best. movie. ever. again.
A.I. = saddest. movie. ever.

ana and i took our sleep over outside, cause it was hot like bitch.

this is ana scared of the boogie man.

our entertainment center. outside.

ana sleeping.


and we SOOO didnt make barbie porn.

thats SOOO not my finger i swear!

there's more where that came from. ;-)

and i ♥ the walkmen + the desden dolls. they rock my panies more than your mom does.

i had fun. mucho fun.

then i came home. went to wal*mart. bought a nuevo cd player. and it rocks.

and i had an emo day today.

its like, things just got me more + more sad. and i felt really fea today. no bonita. and it sucked. i swear my mirror is broken. :-\

but i remedied it with emo-angst grungey Nirvana.

my day went by pretty fast. which is good. and im planning to get my cabello cut. i dont know when though. and i've been wanting to go to the mall. but i dont have time. or anyone to go with. and some guys drove by my bus stop today, and were breaking their necks looking back at me. and it pissed me off. so i flipped 'em off. assholes.

&i really love howard-man and semana-man. even though i hate history, and i suck-o at arte.

and stupid-o jesus hasnt died yet.

and i was looking through mi msn contacts, and some of them have phone numeros with them, and i found some info out. and things are starting to make sense. and im... i dont know. i need to get msnmessenger... like... NOW. ::sigh::

i hate the way i so easily let people lie to me.

i have to go... be.. emo... later days.

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yes it would... [09 Sep 2004|07:51pm]
[ mood | hopeful for both ana + i ]

Wouldn't it be nice if we were older
Then we wouldn't have to wait so long
And wouldn't it be nice to live together
In the kind of world where we belong

You know it's gonna make it that much better
When we can say goodnight and stay together

Wouldn't it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through

Happy times together we've been spending
I wish that every kiss was never ending
Wouldn't it be nice

Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray
It might come true
Baby then there wouldn't be a single thing we couldn't do
We could be married
And then we'd be happy
Wouldn't it be nice

You know it seems the more we talk about it
It only makes it worse to live without it
But let's talk about it
Wouldn't it be nice

Good night baby
Sleep tight baby

Good night baby
Sleep tight baby

(1) saw me fall & didn't save me

[08 Sep 2004|07:54pm]
i want to know, whose fucking genious idea was it, to put me in ART?!?!?!?!?!

so that one day, i can barge into the office, and btich slap whoever thought it to be a clever thing to do.

stupid preusshell.
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[07 Sep 2004|09:45pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

gmail is odd.

its deffinitely taking some a adjusting.

everything is in a differnt place. i have to click more than once to delte something. i dont have to refresh the page, yet i still do, just in case.

i noticed today that i never get on aim anymore.

cause no one ever talks to me.

& i decided to leave my friends list blank + empty, cause i dont have any friends. i'll just hope that if i ever do log on, some not weird, not petafile (sp?), nice, funny, entertaining, genuine, understanding person will IM me and be my friend. and hopefully this one will stay. and his name wont be daniel.


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get our of my face, dont even try... [07 Sep 2004|09:24pm]
[ mood | crappy ]


i havent updated.

in forever and a half.

lucky you guys.

so, my last few weeks of summer, were lame. times five.

i went shopping with my mom + my aunt. i went underwear shopping... which i had been wanting to do for a while. and i dont think i've ever mentioned how much i LOVE underwear shopping. its fun. you should all try it. and send me pictures.

i got stuff for schoolio + 2 non-schoolio shirts.

so my first day.

enexciting and everything i expected.

i saw luwam. and she actually gave me a hug which =ed ♥

ironic the way in english class, raul sat next to samira, and i by eduardo. ha.

i had to stand in a one mile long line for two hours just to pay a 25 motherfucking¢ fine... in the scortching heat. i was so pissed. but i missed english with the kaler. which was better than having to put up with her. so whatever. but when i got to class she was actually pleasent with the denise. so ha.

then i had chemistry. i guess im kinda excited... but i was also excited last the first day last year w/ physics... so it most likely will not last.

lunch was homosexual.

pe was bla.

im now positive that stephanie doesnt like me. and i have no idea why. she just so... cold... with just me... and i dont know. i dont know if i should call her out on it. ask her why... or... i dont know. i think i'll just keep it like it is. i dont see the point. so whatever.

i talked to the LEMon. and the TUmor.

and fulchiron knows my first name and that = not good. grrr.

and (after four mother fucking years) they spelled my name wrong. they spelled it "denice". sorry bitches but its with a fucking "s". assholes.

spanish was just more preusshell. times ten.

the bus ride was bla. i played "go fish" w/ ray. he's funny + awesome. like whoa. even though he's younger than me. i have pe with him too.

it kinda bothers me the way astrid pretends to like me. i mean. whats the point in pretending. she's not doing a good job at it. and i honestly wouldnt give a rats ass if she just told me she didnt like me. cause i kinda already know.

and its just bla.

preuss is so fake. + so is everyone AT preuss.

today when i was going to... spanish, moises saw me, and she seemed really excited. which really touched me. and i hugged him. and it just felt uber awesome to know that someone actually was glad to see me. moises = sex love. he's so awesome. so im just going to keep pretending like he's the only non-fake person there.

i only had one class with bryan today :(. and it was english... and he sits all the way accross the room. and its not cool.

today was hot. which was awesome.

and i got my plaid skirt today. i just need to find a place to get it hemmed. its way to fucking long. its gross.

i think im done.

except i love this song... and the story behind it makes me sad...Collapse )


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[06 Sep 2004|08:03pm]
[ mood | restless ]

wish me luck for tomorrow...

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eeeehehehee. i totally just made this up right now [02 Sep 2004|08:50pm]
[ mood | bored ]

this is my desktop.Collapse )

Post this in your journal with a shot your desktop as of NOW. Also, comment on this entry with that picture.

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this place is a prison... [02 Sep 2004|11:42am]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

ooooh! look at me im hot. i know how to tie a tie.

yeah, thats right biotch. i just learned how to tie a tie. so i am now OFFICALLY hotter than... YOU!

(2) saw me fall & didn't save me

[02 Sep 2004|11:21am]
[ mood | amused ]

OMG! i so want a bunny now.

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